An influential event

I have always been blessed with almost everything. As such, I have taken for granted for many things. But this seemingly privileged illusion came to an end with the life-threatening illness of my mother, which rang a warning bell and woke me up from illusion of blissfulness.

My mother was diagnosed with thyroid cancer, where the tumor can be visually seen by a person and there was a high possibility of being malign. Because of the tumor was so big, I could not stop myself from fearing that the possibility of cancer cells has already shifted to other organs. As suggested by doctors, removal by surgery was the only way of reducing risks to a smaller extent. The surgery was scheduled at about 2 weeks after diagnosing, and its estimated duration was 3 hours. She had a very optimistic mindset, this might seem relieving but in fact this has worsen my fears. The contrast between fears of losing her and her cheerful spirit made me spiral into deep horror. Then, I broke down in tears even before the beginning of her surgery. All I could do, was to sit down and pray.

I expected to see her being pushed out from the theatre after 3 hours. But 5 hours has passed, I started to fidget at the seats, tremendous terror surrounded me so that I couldn't think properly. At one point of time, I even had the impulse to dash into the operating theatre. But I was stopped by my father who was also trying to keep his anxiety in order to comfort me. At last, she was pushed out from the theatre after 6.5 hours. The results were malign, but there were no signs of spreading. Again, I broke down in tears.

My mother has been strong, and her recovery was quick. After her surgery, I have realized that I need to be strong and grateful for everything that I am enjoying, while not forgetting importance of health, filial pieties and the fact that I am blessed.